yesterday i wrote a long ass paragraph about how i’m happy, but for the past 8+ months i’ve had on and off depression. how did i deal with it? well..i took it out on myself and started to self harm. i blamed myself for things i couldn’t change, but now i’ve decided that those self harm days are over. i need to quit..and i will quit. i guess you can say i feel back to “normal” now. with cutting i never wanted to kill myself, but i felt that if i did go too far that it wouldn’t matter. it sucks now though because i have scars that will always remind me of the past. life’s too short though…to not take full advantage of it is a waste. to dislike people for whatever reason is stupid and not worth it. either way we’re all gonna end up dead so why die holding so many grudges and having such a strong disliking for people? it won’t get us anywhere important and it sure won’t do us any good. for the past 8+ months, the song 2nd Sucks~ADTR has been one of my favorites to listen to. the lyric: “set your ego to the side and just get the fuck over it” is soooo fucking true. get over bullshit things that don’t matter and pay attention to the things that do matter.